Following the last post, I thought it would be a good idea to decide on some goals to shoot for this year.

• Focus my time and energy on my relationship with God
• Be a more vocal leader at Grace Community in both VI (college ministry) and RUSH (junior high ministry)
• Be bold with my faith in what I believe and in what I say in conversations with people

Our lives are filled with choices, some stressful, some unintuitive, and some painful. When it comes to relationships (or even the possibility of one), it seems to always be that a painful decision is involved. Months ago I found myself in a place that often left me frustrated and confused. Throughout the 1.5 year time span of liking this one girl, I had to endure watching her fall for a friend and then see my friend break it off. In the midst of this I was struggling to figure whether I liked this girl enough to pursue her, and so my mind ended up becoming like a yo-yo in that I kept going back and forth. This was devastating to my health in that I constantly found my self on the verge of just losing it and breaking down. It seemed that I could not let her go completely. Thankfully, this ended a few months ago when God revealed to me what I had been doing. I see now that I was focusing on the hope of a relationship to bring me pleasure and attention from those closest to me. As I look back, I wish I had spent more of that wasted time in the Word with God.